I Could Not Bring Myself

I could not bring myself to say goodbye
As I feared my feelings I might have to show
I crept away un-noticed and unseen
For me it seemed the easiest way to go.

I did not want a public show of grief
Though I've wept in public once or twice before
And I felt embarassed with myself then
And I don't want that to happen anymore.

I left and I did not utter a word
I crept outside and I quickly went my way
I should have shook their hands and wished them well
But that for me too hard to do and say.

I left without as much as saying goodbye
In fear of things that others well may see
As weakness in the tears I fought to choke
The frailties and the human side of me.